One of the things that really only surfaced to me, probably sometime this year - the idea of genuinely giving
It's hard, to give when we have little
It's hard, to give when we don't know better
It's hard, to give when we are finite
I usually try to give in the form of attention and listen to those around me.
Today it was my dad, and it was tough.
It was tough staying engaged while he went on.
It was tough listening and not speaking when the bones in my body wanted to revolt.
It was tough coming to terms with myself, seeing the man I love say the things he said and looking like he believed every word.
But it hit me, this really isn't about myself and what I believe.
It was an opportunity practice of giving, and to listen with attention, patience and compassion
It was an opportunity to listen and to connect
It was an opportunity to reflect on what I* hold to be true and to challenge them
I wish to be more patient, compassionate and accepting.
Ideas worth spreading, spread.
I wish you well.
*So is it about me afterall..?
When has it not?
Frustrating morning trying to sign up for a new domain and a hosting service, all in the name of saving a few dollars.
Great chat w JL about Godin's Ted talk and the value of standardised testing.
Godin's yak shaving post, doing well now is better than doing perfect later inspired this post. As I was all up in arms trying to figure out how to get the pointing to point, why not just write here?
Well now is better than perfect later.
Fail fast, fail often, don't stop trying
Thursday, June 10, 2021
Today I listened to Seth Godin on The Futur.
1 blog a day, for god knows how many days. That guy is amazing/inspiring indeed. Crazy to think how some dude over the internet is able to make me dig through my old accounts just to try to revive something that I used to do (but tbh didn't really enjoy it). I was hoping to get access to my other blog, the one before this (shadowfeenux) but somehow couldn't get in and found this one instead! Maybe I'll do some cleaning up and try to reclaim this little piece of internet back for myself.
The inspiration, the spark, the "secret sauce", I guess it really does exist, yet doesn't at the same time. The idea has to have already been in me, it has to be, doesn't it? It's already something I know, something I can do, something that I probably wanted to, but didn't know how (or had some resistance in front of me).
Will try my best to keep this up for as long as possible. Pretty therapeutic if you ask me haha.
Love,
M
Friday, April 9, 2010
things i need to get: new bag. new shoes. new boots. new phone.
:D
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
failed e and a math. damn pissed alr. mom comes kp bout not reminding my bro to go to tuition. then scolds me bout not caring for my family, my studies and how my parents are very relaxed about me. how she asked if i wanted tuition last year and i said i could manage, end up fail blaming my brother going late for tuition on me again saying if i dont care about my studies she wont care about me either dont have to wake me up for sch, only my brother how i play on the com everyday and my attitude towards everything.
well. if you are going to blame me for everything i do. go ahead. but dont expect me to do anything about it. i know whats going on and i am working on it. pointing fingers wont help and i am already controlling myself go ahead and blame me if things get worse. you made it that way. thanks lots
with love. your son.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
darling sprained her ankle again D: hope she gets well soon :D
